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Notes from the life and words of Addison and Ryland

Thursday, July 29, 2010

My heart is missing...

I left my heart somewhere at camp and I think I might just lose my mind without it.  My first born, my miniature Richard, my honey, my heart...is gone this week.  She went to Camp Merri-Mac and is having the time of her life...I can see it in the pictures they put up everyday (yes, I check it about once an hour)!  I also am blessed to have so many friends looking after her there.  I get reports daily and it warms my heart...but that doesn't fill the so obvious gap we now have in our family.  Life isn't the same here...part of our zeal is gone.  I toy with the idea of hiking up in the woods and finding her so we can have a secret place we come to everyday to meet and laugh...but than I realize I would be forever pegged as that creepy mom who just couldn't let go.  Wisely I have resisted this temptation!


Yes, we are having fun focusing all of our attention on Ryland and watching him rise to the occasion with his humor and goofiness...I mean someone has to entertain us!  However, we all feel the void.  I know I sound so sad, but on the other (totally amazing) side of this coin I am blessed beyond words to have her experiencing what she is experiencing, growing in every way, relying on God and other godly people there, and being the independent person she loves to be.  She was so excited to go and every report has been that she is all smiles there...bringing joy to the people around her just as she has always brings joy to us.  So this is just a moment to let you know that I am currently living without a portion of my heart, so if I seem a little less colorful or a little more downtrodden...this is why.  However, I choose joy in knowing God has her in his hands and is molding her in ways that I couldn't!

I will leave you with my one and only quote from her these last couple days:
A friend at camp asked Addie: "Addison, what have you guys been doing tonight?"

Addison: "having so much fun!!!"
I love you Addison...more than I can express and I can't wait to tackle you with a huge hug and all the kisses in the world!  You are my heart.